Stormy Sky

Stormy Sky
When I Walk Through The Shadow Of Death I Shall Not Fear

Wednesday, 15 February 2017

Made To Crave - Temtations

Day 11.  I missed a few days while taking care of my grandchildren.  I will put those at the end.

The author, Lysa Terkeurst, of this devotion she struggles with weight.  It was her anniversary and they gave her a large piece of her favorite cake.  She was tempted to eat it but passed it to her husband.  Then she had a pity party and thought 'this is not fare.  She recognized this as the enemy taking advantage of her weakness.

My weakness it to feel I have been left out and not included.  It is just not fair that they get to have that or do this etc.  Satan grabs me with these insecure feelings. At these times of my pity party I focus on the negative instead of the positive which is seeing all the blessings God has given me.

I need to recognize that when I feel this way to go to God's truth, that He has not forgotten me nor abandoned me.  He will always have my back and it is his timing, not mine.  It is by His strength I can do what God has called me to do.  

Matthew 19: 26 Jesus looked hard at the and said, "No chance at al if you think you can pull it off yourself.  Every chance in the world if you trust God to do it. 

Friday, 3 February 2017

Made To Crave - You Were Created For More

 People get knocked down in life and develop a feeling of shame, feel inadequate, we are just not good enough.

 My inadequacy was low self-esteem.  I am not good enough, smart enough, just can't do it good enough.  Fortunately, God has healed most of these in me as I am on his path from glory to glory.

These feelings of insecurity came from my childhood. The church my parents attended did not teach the truth therefore, the lies came in.  Don't compliment your children, they will become conceded. Criticize and tear down instead.

I was very unhealthy as a baby and it took me 3 years to learn to walk or talk.  A social worker who saw me once told Mom I was mentally retarded.  Mom believed this and every time I didn't succeed she told me it was because I was supposed to be mentally retarded.  I grew up believing I was worthless and the dumbest person around.  I believed that if I could do something then everyone else could do it too.  

For many years God kept telling me I was worth more.  He put on my heart Jeremiah 29:11  I know what I am doing. I have it all planned out - plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.  

 When I was growing up I had a desire to own my own business.  That was how I was going to make money.  I haven't made money that way, I married a husband who did that for me. But  I do have my own business.  I make artistic pottery and enjoy doing it. 

It was a long road of God healing me and speaking truth instead of lies into me, but God did keep His promise as long as I was willing to follow him.

I was created for more. 

Made To Crave - Overweight Physically - Underweight Spiritually

Matthew 19 20-21 A rich man came to Jesus and asked him how he could enter the kingdom of heaven.  He followed all the rules and in his eyes was a good person.  Jesus told him to sell everything, then follow Jesus.  He couldn't submit his riches and walked away. Money was his god.

Overweight is definitely a problem for many people, but that is not the issue here.  The question is 'what is more important to me than following God?'.

I try to protect me from people who will hurt me.  I don't like being hurt, verbally because too many loved ones have hurt me.  I run and hide from people.  I don't trust God to love me past the hurts. The god I worship tries to protect myself by running and hiding.  

I need to keep in mind that everyone who has hurt me is a hurting person.  Recently I was telling a person that she never asked me the truth about the situation I was in.  Instead, she went to my husband, who didn't know the complete truth of this situation, and he told her something else.  She told me she didn't ask me because of the reaction I might have.  It might not be favorable. This hurt me because she saw me like this and she was right, so I left the church service, I ran and hid.  Then  I realized she was doing the same thing I did.  She was afraid to talk to me because she didn't want to get hurt.  Her god was the same one I had, protect ourselves so we don't get hurt.

I am not the only one who has these insecurities, but I have a choice to be better than these people, by loving them unconditionally,




Wednesday, 1 February 2017

Made To Crave - Undivided Heart

Sunday sermon was the famous bible story of David and Goliath.  Our pastor focused on why did Dave want to slay the giant. Perhaps because he wanted to save Israelite, but he asked 3 times what Saul would give to the person who slew the giant - wealth, tax-free life and his daughter.  David like most of us had ulterior motives.

Today I began a 21-day bible study called Crave by Lysa Terkeurst, president of Proverbs 31 Ministries.

Lysa talked about her craving food instead of God. She ate to satisfy the battle of lack of love that raged in her heart.  Food is not my problem, but I do crave something else due to a battle of lack of love raging in my heart.

Psalms 139 tells us that God fearfully created us and we are wonderfully made.  It doesn't say anywhere that we need to shape up first before we are loved, which humans often imply to us.

When I encounter a person who criticizes me or bosses me I take offense and want to run away. I feel I am not loved unless I shape up first.  If I hurt back or run away I am telling them, 'I won't love you until you stop hurting me'. I need to love those people and realize that they are acting in a hurtful way because they are not intentionally hurting me. This is the way they have always acted, they are blinded to their sin. In order to not take offense, I need to walk in the spirit and hear God's voice to have an undivided heart when I am talking to people. My motive in talking to people needs to be to love them unconditionally, not to get a favorable response back from them. 

This is a weak spot for me but God is my strength. 
My grace is enough; it’s all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
2 Corinthians 12:9 The Message

Wednesday, 25 January 2017

Faith To Hear God's Small Voice, Not The Clanging Noise Of People.

Luke 17: 5-6 The Message Bible
The apostle came up and said to the Master, "Give us more faith."
But the Master said, "You don't need more faith. There is no 'more' or 'less' faith.  If you have a bare kernel of faith, say the size of a poppy seed, you could say to this sycamore tree, 'Go jump in the lake, and it would do it.

My job as a believer in Jesus Christ is to have faith, to believe.  For 8 years I believed God would heal the bipolar I suffered from and he did.  I watched my leg grow 1/2" as a result of a prayer.  Many times God has rescued me from despair and healed many of my chronic diseases, yet I still doubt at times.

Why is that?  My problem comes, not from not having enough faith, for Jesus said you don't need more.  It is when I have no faith and I don't trust or believe God.  That is when I listen to people, even well-meaning Christians who unintentionally say things that bring me down to their level.   I need to listen to God and have faith He will tell me the truth.

Recently this happened at church. A lady, whom I always kept a safe distance from, was telling me to do something I didn't want to do.  I was so upset I left the church and didn't want to come back.  The next day God gave me Luke 1:17,  Don't let the bullies stop you for doing my work. That is why I keep my distance from her, she bosses me.   If I was listening to God when she was doing this instead of getting hurt, God would have told me she was bullying me then and I would have stayed at church.

Faith to hear God's small voice and not the clanging noise of people. 

We are all on a path towards God, some make it some don't.  I must not be concerned what others think or say about me, that is their path.  I need to keep pressing forward towards the goal of my own path.  To continue to believe that I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.  

Saturday, 10 December 2016

Don't Patch Work Clothes With A Fine Silk Scarf

In Luke 5 the Pharisees were harassing Jesus because he was partying and not fasting.  The law dictated that the Jewish people fast, how dare Jesus go against the law, according to the Pharisees.

Jesus response was that if you are at a wedding, celebrating with the bride and groom you would not fast, instead, you enjoy the celebration and eat.  While the groom is in your presence you celebrate.  When he is gone then you can fast and tighten your belt to lose the weight you gained during the celebration. 

Jesus was referring to Him being the  groom and there would be plenty of time to fast after He went back to heaven. 

I have heard Christians condemning the potlucks we have at church as being a glutton.  Gluttoning in the bible refers to one who always overeats.  Not once in a while at potlucks.  As I read this passage this came to my mind.  There is a time to fast, a time to eat sensibly and time to celebrate and eat more than we need.

Jesus ended this passage with a parable that I didn't think fit in here.  What was Jesus saying? 

Luke 5:36-39  No one cuts up a fine silk scarf to patch old work clothes; you want fabrics that match. And don't put wine in old, cracked bottles; you get strong, clean bottles for your fresh vintage wine. And no one who has ever tasted fine aged wine prefers unaged wine. (Message Bible)

I pondered on this and asked God what it meant for me.

On December 6 I read the daily prophetic word from Bill and Marsha Burns. God speaking through Marsha Burns said many have condemned themselves. www.ft111.com

I have done that.  I have condemned my pottery.  If a piece of pottery doesn't turn out the way I expect it to I don't put it up for sale.  I think, who will want to buy that.  Then I do put it up for sale and it sells.  We are all different.

I felt God was telling me with this passage that when He brings a new thing into my life don't patch it with my old thoughts.  I wouldn't tear up a fine silk scarf to patch my husbands work clothes. Yet I am taking God's belief in me, that I am that fine silk cloth or the vintage wine and I am tearing it up to go back to my old ways, the work clothes or the  putting the wine in cracked bottles, which is a waste.  I condemn what God has given me when I go back to the old thoughts.  I am not celebrating the feast of the groom, the gift of Jesus, who took our sins to the cross. 

I am a child or God and He is the king of the universe.  I need to see myself, not as the worthless person, people have told me I was, but as a princess who God dresses in the best. 

Monday, 12 September 2016

Chase The Lion - Your Destiny Unfolds

God formed us in the womb, yet before that he designed our lives before us.  Then he gave us the choice to follow it or not.

We never know where our plans for us will end.  King David's Psalms, have reached millions if not billions of people, yet I doubt David thought about who these would reach as he wrote them.  He wrote them from his heart and pain. 

God wants us to follow Him obediently and let God use it His way to bless others. 

My destiny predated me before I was even conceived. God had a script for my life. And he is in the process of fulfilling it today. 

Where is God taking me? How can I say yes to his plan this day?

God has taken me out of the miry pit and healed me in many ways.  Now he is asking me to write my story of healing which I have said yes to. It is taking some time to get done.  I have no idea where it will go so I just write, one word at a time.

Jeremiah 1:5
Before I shaped you in the womb, I knew all about you. Before you saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you: A prophet to the nations- that's what I had in mind for you.  (To heal the nations is the word for me)